never let the fear of strikin out. Keep you from playin the game.

I'm always so scared to open up to guys and let them know how I feel. I've lost a couple real good guys cause I seem to push them away or completely shut down and not let them in. I've known I've had this problem ever since my first serious relationship ended. I no longer trusted not only guys but girls too I turned into a hermit. I was workin out alright (bein single) up until losin my best friend than I cut everyone out of my life, didn't trust anyone except my family. I still met guys just didn't let them know me or develop feelins for them. But after losin Virg I'm way more reserved. I hardly let anyone in except my beautiful Chelsey and my grammy. But I started hangin out with this guy named Jake, his brother was friends with Virg and Jake knows a lot about Virg. He also likes to do everything me and Virg used to. He's also super attractive and I like who I am when I'm around him. I just don't know how he feels about me. And I'm scared to let him know how I feel. I know I should tell him cause if I don't I'll regret it and I'll never know if I don't say it, I'm just scared of the out come of it all. I just really want to be happy. And I wanna be happy with him, Just don't know if he's happy with me. He is younger than me so I worry about him only likin me cause I'm old enough to buy beer or just the fact that an older girl is into him. Meeeeh I wish I could just listen to my heart instead of my heart gettin under heard cause I over think everything so much. I wish I could just get out of my head for awhile .